Exploring Body Wounds, Disembodiment and Challenges to Nourishment

This podcast is for all of us queerly bodied people.  Sometimes it feels like there is a constricting demand on our bodies, that we must look or feel or experience pleasure in a certain way.  In my experience, I have felt like I have needed space to make sense of having a body that is always already misaligned with what social structures are dictating. As someone who lives in queer community and works as a psychotherapist, I know that my experience is not a solitary one.  This is a podcast for people who identify as queer or for people who might think of their relationship between their body and confining social narratives as queer. This can feel like an isolating experience.  It is my hope that this podcast can illustrate the connections, and resonant pain points, that we have with one another. 

Our wounded bodies need spaces to talk about struggles with nourishment/disordered eating, body image issues, dysphoria, racism, heterosexism, transphobia, xenophobia, substance use/abuse, chronic pain/disability, body changes in parenthood, intergenerational trauma, the medical/wellness/therapy industrial complex and its lack of inclusion of queer bodies and much more. 

This is a podcast about the barriers to embodiment and how our collective body stories can bring us back to ourselves.I believe that everyone deserves to be supported in their own legacies of trauma and psychic suffering so that we can imagine the liberatory possibilities of substantive social transformation. I believe that, in coming to know and accept our own inner multiplicity, we can free up psychic space to dedicate to collective healing.










 

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Episode 0
WELCOME

Welcome! Thank you for visiting the site as it is under construction. I want to offer Our bodies space to talk about struggles with nourishment and disordered eating, dysphoria, racism, chronic pain/disability, transphobia, xenophobia, body changes in parenthood, intergenerational trauma, the medical/wellness/therapy industrial complex and its lack of inclusion of queer bodies and much more!  The people I interview will be embodiments of many of these struggles as well as inspirations.  They will remind us that in the alchemical process of touching in on our pain we can and often do generate so many beautiful and complex queer lives. 

I made this podcast to generate a space of recognition for our wounded parts.  While we will be talking about serious topics, there WILL be levity and joy alongside grief. 

 
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Episode 1
Tattoo Doula Tamara Santibañez
on Reclaiming Embodiment

Tamara Santibañez (b. 1987) is a multimedia artist living and working in Brooklyn. Her work is rooted in subcultural semiotics, exploring the meanings we assign to materials, accessories and objects. Drawing from the worlds of fetish, punk, Chicanx art, and tattooing, she probes the weight objects hold as symbols and the ways in which style-based cultural signifiers function as shorthand for a coded communication.  

Santibañez is the founding editor of New York-based independent publishing house Discipline Press, a multimedia venture dedicated to reconnecting popular imagery of counterculture with the narratives and history of those who create it, with a focus on excavating experiences of marginalized peoples within subculture. As a tattoo artist working at the legendary Saved Tattoo, Santibañez is widely known for her innovative combination of Chicanx imagery with fetish iconography. 

 
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Episode 2
Wolf medicine magic

The Body as Student and Teacher

 

Regina Rocke is an Ayurvedic Health Counselor, 500hr Yoga Teacher, Barre fitness instructor and Breathwork healer living in Brooklyn, NY since 2004. In 2014 she received her Ayurveda and yoga teaching certifications from the Kripalu School of Yoga and Ayurveda and trained with Breathwork healer and teacher David Elliot in 2017.

 
 
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episode 3

Marlee Grace on Learning the Body

Again and Again, and More all the time

 

Marlee Grace is an improviser and author currently based in Michigan. She works with improvisation as a method for navigating being alive and making work through movement, quilting, writing, and hosting the CENTER residency. Marlee is the author of How to Not Always Be Working: A Toolkit for Creativity and Radical Self-Care (2018) and A Sacred Shift: A Book About Personal Practice (2017).

@marleegrace / @personalpractice

 
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episode 4

Mel Plaut on Guns and Guts in Rural Georgia

 

Mel Plaut (she/they/he) is an author and urban planner. Her first book, HACK, is a memoir of her experiences as a New York City taxi driver. Plaut’s writing has appeared in The New York Times, USA Today, HuffPost, Lenny Letter, BUST Magazine, and on NPR’s “All Things Considered.” Born in New York City, Plaut is currently based in Eatonton, Georgia, where she’s writing a novel about queer gun clubs in rural America.

 
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episode 5

LINDSAY MACK: THIS WILD BODY

 

Lindsay Mack is an intuitive Tarot teacher, writer, and the founder of Tarot for the Wild Soul. Lindsay is the creator of Soul Tarot, a way of interpreting and intentionally utilizing the Tarot as a tool for self care, healing, and evolution through an inclusive, trauma friendly, soul centered perspective. Soul Tarot is a fusion of Lindsay’s 22 years of experience reading and studying Tarot, her work with her mentor, her own healing journey through complex PTSD/chronic illness, and channeled wisdom from her Guides. Through her regularly sold out workshops, retreats and online Tarot courses, Lindsay has had the profound honor of teaching Soul Tarot to thousands of people from all around the world.

 
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episode 6

Atalanta is blossoming resistance

 

Atalanta Sungurov is a white, disabled, gender expansive queer parent. Ze works as a community activist & herbalist living rurally on unceded Mohican land in what is now so called western Massachusetts. Atalanta approaches plant medicine through healing justice work that holds values of accessibility and dynamics of navigating survival within a capitalist system. Atalanta brews herbals (https://blossoming-resistance.com/) with dreams of creating medicine in an effort to support collective liberation in their interactions with the world around them. One of their deep loves is to frolic in wild places, whether that be cuddling moss under grand trees, or laughing while stuck in swamps with their kids.

 
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episode 7

Kei Tsuruharatani on Moving Between

Stability and Exploration

 

Kei Tsuruharatani is a native of Japan, a non-binary person, living in NYC since 2009. He's a dancer, singer, actor recently performed in the Broadway bound musical Jagged Little Pill. Along with freelancing as an artist, he teaches mindfulness meditation for the people in the entertainment industry and non-profit organization. You can find out lots more about Kei on his instagram: @keipence

 
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episode 8

Body Hacking with Andrea Abi-Karam

 

Andrea Abi-Karam is an arab-american genderqueer punk poet-performer cyborg, writing on the art of killing bros, the intricacies of cyborg bodies, trauma & delayed healing. Their chapbook, THE AFTERMATH (Commune Editions, 2016), attempts to queer Fanon’s vision of how poetry fails to inspire revolution. Andrea's first book, EXTRATRANSMISSION [Kelsey Street Press, 2019], is a poetic critique of the U.S. military's role in the War on Terror. They toured with Sister Spit March 2018 & live in New York.

 
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episode 9

Jenna Wortham on Finding Peace Beneath the Skin

 

Jenna Wortham is a researcher, writer, thinker, reiki practitioner, archivist and budding herbalist living in Brooklyn, New York. Her work revolves around the intersection of technology and wellness, somatic healing, embodiment, popular culture and liberatory politics. She is the author of the forthcoming visual anthology “Black Futures” with Kimberly Drew. Her podcast and journalism work can be found online at www.jennydeluxe.com

 
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episode 10

Leah Jo Carnine on Following the Path of Ease, Sometimes

 

Leah Jo Carnine is a community organizer and family medicine healthcare provider living Albuquerque, New Mexico. She’s been fortunate to be part of integrating queer and trans health, harm reduction and an anti-oppression framework into her community health work, and trauma informed somatic learning into medicine and liberation work. She’s passionate about the intersections of transformative health care and collective liberation, and enjoys making art, playing banjo, hiking, and hanging with her tiny dog and beloved community.

 
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episode 11

Adrienne Maree Brown: Let the hard shit be hard AND Look for the pleasure, look for the joy

 

Adrienne Maree Brown is the author of Emergent Strategy: Shaping Change, Changing Worlds and Pleasure Activism: The Politics of Feeling Good, and the co-editor of Octavia’s Brood: Science Fiction from Social Justice Movements. She is a writer, social justice facilitator, pleasure activist, healer and doula living in Detroit.

 
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episode 12

XARA THUSTRA: STOP MEN

 

Xara Thustra is a Bay Area queer artist and activist who defies categories with their anti-capitalist and revolutionary art. Since moving to San Francisco in 1995, Xara, a self-taught, and hard-working artist, cast spells with their giant, colorful graffiti on rooftops and in the streets calling for: Heart Over Capital, No More Prisons, Stop America and Free The Free. At the height of the dot-com boom, Xara created posters and banners with powerful political imagery for Mission Anti-Displacement Coalition and organized art auctions raising 10’s of thousands of dollars for the Coalition on Homelessness.

Xara has shown their work in galleries, museums and various underground spaces including Needles and Pens, Adobe Books,

YBCA’s Bay Area Now exhibit, SF MOMA, Berkley art museum and painted murals on Clarion Alley and SF queer bar El Rio and many more touring cross country. Xara has often challenged and refused the art world’s cooptation and commodification instead using their art to support

 and build community networks of care.  In 2015, Xara had a solo retrospective show at The Lab where the entire exhibit of hundreds of pieces of artwork were auctioned off to benefit queer elder and activist Kaye “Nana” Griffin.

 Now residing in Oakland, Xara paired up with artist Monica Canilao to form MCXT, a creative partnership making collaborative work that is both magical and rooted in their diy and radical principles. MCXT have painted murals internationally celebrating queer spaces in New York, Mexico and at SF’s historic queer bar The Stud. Last Fall, their first large-scale museum exhibition Infinite Other opened at the Santa Cruz Museum of Art and History showing work they created together over 18 months. Using intricately layered drawings, paintings, recycled materials and installation, MCXT created a deeply heartfelt and radically joyful incantation for reimagining love, the sacred, and the connection between personal and shared stories.

 
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episode 13

against purity with jade marks

 

Jade Marks is an herbalist, farmer and artist based in Brooklyn.  They run a small apothecary that centers trans and queer people, mental health and disability called 69herbs.

You can find them on instagram @69herbs or https://www.69herbs.nyc/about.

 
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episode 14

decolonizing fitness with ilya parker

 

llya Parker is a black non binary trans masculine person (he/they), Physical Therapist Assistant and ACE Certified Medical Exercise Specialist with over 13 years of rehabilitative and functional training experience. Ilya is a social justice advocate, and educator whose work centers racial, gender and healing justice. Ilya is also a freelance writer and has contributed to Every Day Feminism, Self Magazine , Mashable and AthleteAlly.

Ilya decided to merge their love for restorative based movement practices and community advocacy to create Decolonizing Fitness, LLC which is owned and operated solely by trans and queer people of color. Decolonizing Fitness is a social justice platform that provides affirming fitness services, community education and apparel in support of body diversity.”

To learn more about Ilya, go to his website: https://decolonizingfitness.com/ and listen to his podcast, Decolonizing Fitness.

 
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episode 15

jack ferver is half girl half boy

 

Jack Ferver is a New York based writer, choreographer, and director. His genre defying performances, which have been called “so extreme that they sometimes look and feel like exorcisms” (The New Yorker), explore the seams between fantasy and reality, character and self, humor and horror. The critically acclaimed artist has been presented throughout New York City, most recently at New York Live Arts, as well as domestically and internationally. Ferver is a recipient of the Foundation for Contemporary Arts Grant. He teaches at Bard College. As an actor, he has appeared in numerous films and television series. More information at: jackferver.org

 
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episode 16

TEA LEIGH IS WILD LIKE THE HORSES

 

Tea Leigh is a queer tattooer that has been living in Brooklyn for the past 7 years. With a background in music, installation art, photography and postpartum healing as a doula, Tea now concentrates on and hand poked tattooing and story telling. 

Tea co-owns their own interdisciplinary tattoo studio, Welcome Home, with partner business Kelli Kikcio.

 
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episode 17

Dyke Soccer with

Adele Jackson-Gibson and Yael Malka

 

In this episode, I interview two dyke soccer players, Yael and Adele, who talk about what it has been like to find community and confidence in their bodies.

Yael Malka (b.1990) graduated in 2012 from Pratt Institute with a BFA in Photography and minor in Art History. Solo shows include Almost Touching, at The Rubber Factory and Where’s the Invitation at The Leslie-Lohman Museum and group exhibitions at The Brooklyn Museum Library, The Rubber Factory, Bruce High Quality, Philadelphia Photo Arts Center, Sikkema Jenkins, ArtBridge and Hudson Valley LGBTQ Community Center, among others. She is currently working on her third book with a series of photos made in Kibbutz Kinneret, Israel. She is a co-founder of the artist initiative Memory Foam which curates exhibitions and live events with artists, produces an artist interview video series and publishes zines. Yael is from the Bronx, NY and currently resides in Brooklyn. Instagram: yael_malka

Adele Jackson-Gibson is a storyteller and fitness coach who writes about women’s sports, wellness and spirituality. Instagram: @adelejackson26



 
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